Dear Reader,

If you lived through many trials as a child, or even later in life, and yet persevered in Faith and Love, there comes a time when we need to consciously own the pain, and the faith in God that carried us through. This is when we are tempted to give in, give up and deny God’s Love and Grace for us. Yet it is an invitation to come to maturity and choose to live for the Love of God, with His guidance and Strength supporting us when we ask.

These nuggets show God’s Love and Work, in bringing me through the darkness that I was born into and now turn my faith into Trust in the Life and Work of the Holy Spirit through me. But this applies to all that God has taken as His own, when we were abandoned by our father and, or, mother.

I wonder how many children in these days, have God as their Father? Time will tell.

Join me with these nuggets speaking to my human soul to give me courage and blessing to persevere in His Goodness.

Monday 25th of May, 2020

Glory to God for this new day.

My child, given to God at birth - fighting for life in My Grace and Love against the powers of darkness and the lies of satan. - born blind* - to the Glory of God.

PRAISE God the Father for His mighty work and saving grace. Bind yourself to His Will today.*

*On reflection I recall I was given a prophetic Word many years ago about having been ‘born blind’ like the story in the Gospel of John (John 9:2-3)- I realise this refers to the effect of His work through me, which has caused me to be lifted to Life through the Holy Spirit - thus ‘raising the dead’… This current work is building my Will for Him in that I need to choose for His Spirit and purposes..

Wednesday 27th May, 2020

We, my daughter, together, go into the day in faith, for God the Father’s purposes - fulfilling your/our mission for today - raising the dead to life - forgiving and blessing. Amen.

Be patient My dear one and trust in humble obedience and grace.

Thursday 28th May, 2020

Child, you have given everything for Me and faced darkness and disappointment without grumbling because I am with you, giving praise to God and forgiveness to those who offend against you/Me.

I want you to bless your enemies even more and allow Me to provide your Grace and Strength to persevere in good work, without bitterness but in love and hope, and trust in the Father’s Heart for you, and all abused women and men.

Friday 29th of May, 2020

Darling daughter, sister, mother, bearer of God the Word. Have courage, faith, hope and love through Me to carry the Father’s Love and purpose in Me through the Holy Spirit. Amen. Amen.

You wear the Shoes of Righteousness and Well- being walking in My Foot-steps, Truth and Grace. You (in Me) will overcome. Amen. Journal first and foremost…..(writing up the Journals from the time on retreat in Wales….)

Dear Reader, you too are a witness to God’s work in the past, or now - if you have been obedient to His Way and leading. May you have grace to reflect and believe - growing in confidence in your inner-being.

I must say that when a trial from the world, or temptations of excess food, or desire to have control, come on me, daily, I am led to simply turn to God in prayer - and peace is restored and wisdom leads me in loving prayer and action towards myself, and others. Glory to God.

May you be blessed in His Peace and good-will.

Dear Reader,

I never fail to be in awe of how God ‘works things together for good’. Yesterday I was aware of an old wound come to the surface, and later in the day watched a film about St Theresa of Lisieux. Her life and thinking had touched me when I was needing to know about ‘humility’ and living for God’s Love. And I was reminded of the disappointed desire I had had to become a nun.

And now today the Nuggets are focussed on living for God’s Love, even in the suffering, as if suffering is a blessing of closeness with God. I needed these reminders.

So dear readers, I hope you too find blessing in these reminders of God’s ways and the infinite Love of God when we turn to Him and ask for courage to persevere.

Monday 18th May, 2020

ALL for God- redeemed through/by the Cross - (Thank You Lord for bringing the depths of rejection to the Light that I may forgive and bless my enemies…)

Continue to ‘fight’ the enemies within with praise and thanksgiving. You will work the icon and the room until you go out at 3.30pm Be blessed. The path is laid out in the Father’s Heart) - follow it and rest in His (Our) Love. - Amen .

(Amen Lord.)

Tuesday 19th May, 2020

Accept My gift to you…forget the former things**.

I love you with an everlasting love. I provide for your needs - Note Psalm 92: 13-14…’They shall bear fruit in old age; They shall be fresh and flourishing.’

Be encouraged My daughter - in the Father’s hand you shall dwell securely and I will provide for My purposes and your needs. Now I need you to complete the icon.

** I had been moved to order a new pair of binoculars. My previous pair had been stolen along with other goods from my room.

Wednesday 20th May, 2020

Beloved daughter, My Divine Presence incarnated in your suffering - yet persevering in Love and long-suffering in Faith and grace to serve and Love. Be incarnated My darling and trust in this mystery of purity of Heart. You are blameless My treasure - and loveless in human terms. Open your heart door to the Treasures of Darkness in My Light. Amen

Thursday 21st May, 2020

Child you are living for Me - even Christ crucified - Praise, Love, bless your enemies - and do what needs to be done/prayed, and trust in My Divine grace to overcome. I will lead you to Life everlasting. Do not be anxious or afraid. I love you.

Saturday 24th May, 2020

Today you re-start your study and acceptance of My Will and purpose through the Holy Spirit. You are precious in My sight - without spot - but I need to expand your grace and truth and I need you to give yourself to My leading and perseverance in prayer and study. Do not doubt, as in the past - be brave and trusting -

(Forgive me Lord - I believe, help Thou my unbelief.)

Dear Reader,

Let your life become an act of Love and service…and He will guide and guard you… Nothing can separate you from the Love of God if you believe in Jesus Christ, the redeemer of all darkness.

Dear Reader,

Have you ever had that sense that you are being called on - inward, or on-ward, and you need to let go your comfort zones?

I’m like that now in life, and in 2020 I was being moved on and challenged in new ways of commitment to His Life. Its always a greater surrender of time and will to be open to the work of the Holy Spirit in new dimensions - and may lead to fundamental change of direction…

See if these nuggets strike any chords with you…..

Tuesday 12th May, 2020.

Today my beloved daughter - Give Me 5 hours of dedicated prayer and/or writing, and/or study of St Seraphim/St Silouan.*

2 hours 6-8am; 1 hour 1.30-2.30. and 2 hours 4-6pm.

And keep in prayer when doing your work - (in the garden) - Only one wall at a time of the shed.

Extend the trellis on the R and complete painting the fence slats and brush wood.

(*When I came into the Orthodox Church I prayed to God that the priest would only give me what He (God the Father) wanted me to have. The priest gave me two books - ‘St Silouan the Athonite’; and ‘A Flame in the Snow’ about St Seraphim. Their journeys with and for Christ, held significance in relation to their suffering.

St Silouan went through a difficult time when the devil was preventing him from worshipping Christ; after months of prayer he was told by God that pride was an issue, and ‘Keep your mind in hell and don’t despair’. This has kept me far from pride, and brought me to geater trust in God. St Seraphim, although in a monastery, lived an isolated life, suffered sickness as a child, physical attack while living as a hermit, and through months of dedicated prayer, was given great love for God and the many people who came to him.)

Wednesday 13th May, 2020

Praise for * every trial. Call on My Name and put all the things and people you cannot control into the Father’s hands. Do not be afraid My Child.

(Oh Lord - I feel lost- empty - without grace, truth or direction- Have mercy on me, - deliver me from all self-interest - Lord have mercy on the oppressed.)

Child - I was crucified - have faith in the Father.

Friday 15th May, 2020

Child, do not be afraid of this challenging time. I am with you. Cling to the Cross and praise - in and through My Name. At the Name of Jesus every knee will fall.

(Lord enable me to love and keep silent - forgive my desire to justify myself.0

Forgive all My dear daughter - and keep on forgiving. I love you - go in My Name - gently, forbearing and blessing. Amen.

Saturday 16th of May. 2020

In your ‘nothingness ‘ - your ‘kitten-ness’ -despised and rejected - you have integrity and justice. ‘A bruised reed I will not break’.

(Thank You Lord for this work of Your Spirit.)

Listen, Pray - that you too be released from prison. Maintain prayer, praise and Hope in My Name. Nothing is impossible for God. Hope in God’s purposes to be fulfilled today. Amen.

(Comment- Re this last nugget - I didn’t understand this at the time - but quite recently I re-felt this ‘nothingness’ (the ‘abandoned kitten’) and actually felt my integrity humanly speaking - and the PEACE that God was in charge and could be trusted. )

Dear souls, All I can say is - there is such freedom in learning to trust - and seek obedience. The wonder of letting go of fear, and self-interest that actually doesn’t know the way forward, and trusting that God will bring all things together for GOOD in service for others.

Dear Reader,

Many people live with an intuitive awareness of living for a ‘greater good’, or they have a desire to live to their best. These awarenesses may, or not, coincide with a church life which gives another layer of seeking to Love with all you are, OR trying to match up with expectations. Only you and your Conscience can arrive at a loving walk between you and Who you believe in and live for.

What I want to illustrate today was a shift in the tone of the Nuggets this week. Back in 2020, I was getting more relaxed about simply doing what was needed, and trusting I would be helped to do it, (instead of judging myself constantly); but at the end of the week I was invited/instructed to do something specifically which would needed me to ‘set Christ (in me,) free.’ This required something deeper.

Maybe you have a ‘Christ crucified’ in you? I knew that the abuse I had suffered in childhood had caused ‘mini-deaths’ - at least of the soul, and they had affected my ability to persevere in anything which was not overtly understood in the world, as acceptable.

Walk with me with these Nuggets - and find how you are encouraged by these Nuggets to find more grace and Love, and risk allowing a deeper walk of faith.

Tuesday 5th May, 2020

Blessed lamb of God. Consider and DO - what is beautiful, good and true today. Do what is needful in the garden -planting up the flowers - watering the garden of your Heart with calligraphy, and painting - for a greater good.

Be patient child and trust Me to carry you.

Thursday 7th May, 2020

Darling child, all will be well. Take one step at a time and keep praying that the Unseen Real will be with you and guiding you to complete this act of kindness. Glory to God My dear one.

(Beloved - I adore You - Jesus Christ.)

Come Holy Spirit envelop My daughter in My Hope and Truth.

Friday 8th May, 2020

Child, do not be afraid that I will leave you when you have to face potential conflict and have to seek for a need to be met which is not of your making.

Praise, trust and bless. Do not anticipate difficulties - pray for harmony. Prepare what you can. To God be the glory.

Sunday 10th May, 2020*

Crust!! (**). Stay with your Heart in prayer/writing for at least 5 hours today - and everyday this week. Do not fret but bring your mind back when it wanders.

Pray, pray and write to set Me free to live and Work to the glory of God. Overcoming the world, the flesh and the devil.

* At this time in 2020 the world was in the middle of the Covid epidemic, and here in England the churches were largely closed. We did open later with distancing regulations but at this time we had no physical attendance at church - hence there was time for me to spend time listening to the Holy Spirit. The following week in the journal makes it more clear how this praying/listening was to happen.

** When I was a child no-one had identified my gluten intolerance and eating bread was difficult. Eating the crusts was even more difficult as they had little to help me swallow them! I had come to refer to anything ‘hard to swallow’ as ‘crusts’. Here the Holy Spirit warns me that He is offering me a ‘Crust’!!

Dear Reader, Above all, God wanted me to learn that He was never going to abandon me, and never had. And thus I needed to allow Him into all fear of change, or sense of aloneness, with powerlessness to overcome. He needed to provide me with His Word and Spirit in order to affirm His Life and Grace alive in me.

Through the Word, and Holy Hope we overcome and grow in Grace.

Good courage and perseverance, Marina

Dear Reader,

I somehow feel this journey with the Nuggets is a bit like carrying a rucksack full of balloons. They seem bulky but in fact have little weight. As I read through this week’s Nuggets I was aware of how patiently I have been given healing - and know that even now in 2026 I am realising some of the fruits of that restored soul referred to in 2020.

I guess we are all in this path of redemption and healing, for the long term effect. No amount of ‘quick fix’ is going to stick - but the constant call for praise and gratitude does - building a solid foundation of grace and love where there had just been pain and emptiness.

You are welcome to explore the pathways of redemption and salvation with me.

(Monday 27th April - and Tuesday 28th April 2020 - The entries for both days recorded what I was doing and setting up related to iconography work and setting up space for calligraphy - because no outside work was possible in the rain. I received no message through the Holy Spirit these days.)

Wednesday 29th April, 2020

I promised you many years ago that I would take care of your healing* if you focussed on serving in My Name.

(I trust You Lord. I love You. Help Thou my lack of trust/love.)

Persevere My child - My beloved - in Faith and Hope. All will be well. Make every moment Mine through prayer and resting in My Presence in Love and Gentleness. You are Mine and I am yours.. Amen.

* During prayer I was asked to forgive my blood father - I sensed no feeling about him - just an emptiness I had to accept; but I was obedient to forgive him - and then the pain came….. and I saw that this loss was a root of my insecurity in ‘being’ alive, and my desire to be ‘verified’ and ‘fathered’.

Thursday 30th April, 2020

Beloved daughter - you are Mine - especially the ‘kitten’ (the lost soul**)- left to die by man. I will bring you to resurrection in My Purposes - Holy and Divine.

Do not be afraid. ‘All men will know you are My disciples when you have love one for another.’

** I had long ago been aware of a ‘lost soul’ in me which I had related to a sick and abandoned kitten I had once found, rescued and reared it back to health and vitality.

Friday 1st May, 2020

Darling child, you are so afraid I will run from you. I will be with you always. Keep your ‘training’*** going to bring deep release in your lungs and throat and face.

All will be well. Bless and forgive, again and again. Aim to glorify your Heavenly Father with, and through Me. I will guide you. Amen.

Go in My Name and Spirit. Praise the Lord.

*** I had been led to do this Singing with Freedom on-line course in response to the problems I was having with singing, breath control and confidence in holding a note or harmony while singing in church. I came to realise how many of these problems were trauma related as deep seated trauma wounds showed themselves when I found myself ‘judged’ and lacking confidence.

Saturday 2nd May, 2020

Darling, darling child - you are unutterably precious to Me. Nothing can separate you from My love - no history or future - you are held in the Palm of My Hand - A precious Jewel - a holy nation - a sanctified soul.

(Lord I believe, help Thou my unbelief.)

Go in My Name. Be Strengthened in/through grace to love and serve the community - praying in My Love.

Dear Reader I hope and pray that the Love of God, which is TRUTH, Hope and Eternal Life, will bless you with grace to challenge any lies that still operste in your mind and heart. May His Love and tenderness bring you a new sense of Living - even today……..

Dear Reader,

If you are someone who suffered trauma inducing abuse or neglect as a child, the wounds in your body may still rob you of the Peace that comes from KNOWING you are unconditionally loved.

You may have lived in denial, till as an adult you needed to face the Truth of your Pain and Loss.

Or you limped through life trying to fix yourself with a lack of understanding of what ‘sin’ is and half-hearted, second-hand commitment to His Love and Life for you.

Once more these nuggets challenge the broken understanding in those who have suffered lovelessness - and are still trying to find healing through more condemnation!

These Nuggets are given us to speak God’s Truth and Love into our Broken Hearts.

Monday 20th April, 2020

Complete surrender My dearest child, to My Will - doing good to those who persecute you, involve for Me, and pray for them.

(So be it Lord, I will do the weeding I have been asked to do. I put the completion of the icon in Your hands. Come Holy Spirit.)

Child of Righteousness - be humble and full of grace.

Tuesday 21st April, 2020

Darling of My Heart - as we become closer - silence will embrace you more in Love, Trust and Humility before My Grace and face. You will know my Love in New Ways - beyond the world and previous understanding. I will lift you to new heights and new responsibilities in Love. You will know yourself as God’s child, hidden in Me.

Thursday 23rd April, 2020

P.S. ‘St Nicodomus (of Mount Athos) came into my mind - again- during prayer and I finally looked him up. He promoted the Hesychast prayer (essentially stillness and the Jesus Prayer * and all prayer ‘of the Heart’)- and Beauty as a way of salvation. I was lifted out of the mire my heart was in yesterday - and persevered with the icon-work I had been asked to do - and more ‘building work’ re the garden fence and shed….Glory to God.

*The Jesus Prayer has a number of shorter, or longer versions but built around, ‘Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy of me/us’.

Friday 24th April, 2020

The sun welcomes you dear child - but stay with Me to complete the icon - then do that bindweed removal in the other’s garden.

Do not be afraid of My Name on your lips at all times - and My Praise in your heart. I Am the Light of the World - and its Lightness. In you, darkness and despair that nothing will change for women - in Me - Light and Trust.

As you travel this journey of redemption we are facing the challenges of deeper wounds. But He will never give us more than we can cope with - WITH HIM!

So this week I realised I was needing to allow the Holy Spirit into the memory of the situation that caused the deepest trauma wound - with actual physical pain arising now from a fall when I slipped on mud! All I can say is ‘Glory to God who brought me through and gave me life for all those years, and now brings me integration of the physical and emotional pain.

Truly my hope in still in Him….but I know I don’t need to keep ‘running from the pain’ - I can choose for His Joy and Love.

Good strength to keep persevering in faith and prayer.

Dear Reader,

If, like me, you had rejection and other abusive experiences in your childhood, you too may have had difficulty believing that God is with you, and loves you. Inevitably this makes us vulnerable to many behaviours of others within the world.

It also makes us a bit like a sieve in our hearts, and mind, meaning that affirmations and loving experiences and God’s hand guiding you, may not initially ‘stick’ and form a firm foundation, never mind bring healing to the holes, and forgiveness to those who apparently ‘caused’ the holes.

This is why prayer, especially ‘prayer of the heart’, and contemplation of the Heart and God’s Word is crucial to ‘building’ life in Love of, and Love for, God. Nothing in the world can bring us the Love that overcomes all darkness, and enables us to receive, and Live, the Love that passes all understanding.

In 2020, I still had a lot of doubt and in these nuggets my uncertainty is being gently challenged to enable me to stand in the Truth of God’s, (Father, Son and holy Spirt) Love, care and guidance.

I hope you find them encouraging too.

Monday 13th April, 2020

Child, whatever happens - you are Mine. Praise and Trust and I will be with you. You are precious to Me. The Father’s hope in this place - for gentleness and kindness and continued Prayer. Do not be ashamed of your poverty of spirit - but Praise and give thanks for God’s Kingdom.

Wednesday 15th April, 2020

Child, be patient and pure. This trial* will pass- own it - rejoice that in My Kingdom all will be well - and rejoice that in my Kingdom aa will be well.- and rejoice that now you know the pain of loss* and mourn your childless-ness and self-hatred as a woman. Confess your indifference and let Me open up this wound that it may be redeemed and healed - and turned to good. Pray for healing.

Thursday 16th April, 2020.

Hope embraces your thought, mind, body and soul. Hope enables perseverance, praise, vision of Beauty.

Hope enables action for good - for order- for service.

Hope unites….Because Hope IS and was and ever will be. Amen.

Persevere My beloved daughter, in Me, (in Christ) in God.

Hope is Eternal.

(Oh Glorious God - Amen.)

Friday 17th April, 2020

Go child. Wilful and skilful- do this in the Holy Name of Jesus Christ - in Love, for Love - with Love.

(And my doubting self was ‘testing the spirits of what I heard, as St John instructs us-‘ and the Lord replied,

‘Yes child I do believe , trust and worship Jesus Christ come in the Flesh- Willing to Serve- Go.’

* I went to get flowers (for the church) in the time slot allotted to the over 70s etc at the local supermarket. (This was at the height of the Covid outbreak and the restrictions which were imposed.) I also bought some food and Garden necessaries. I felt ‘wilful’ because I had texted the person responsible and had received no blessing to make this trip. But I received it directly!

Dear Reader,The more we ‘stay present’ to where we are at any one moment, the feelings, concerns etc, and turn them to God - we can find peace. The more we trust He will lead us, guide us and provide for us, the greater Peace we have.

Our Faith, Hope and Love grow because our inner being is becoming a vessel of the Holy Spirit. This means we are daily open to more grace and Love; growing in Trust, and willingness to give up ‘vainglory’ that comes from what ‘we have done’. Our True thinking stems from the leading of the Holy Spirit in our heart - rather than the ‘shoulds and oughts’ of the head. And yet when we look back on anyone day, there is much to praise God for.

In the last six years since these nuggets I have grown more in what the Holy Spirit was seeking to teach me here. And the peace I had during all that time was in ‘desiring to do His Will’.

I pray for more of those moments of Joy when I know I am ‘in Christ, in God’- and yet those are the moments I am most grounded, most loving and present to people. And today He has shown me that when Jesus said ‘Heaven is in your HEART’ - He was speaking the Truth.

Dear Reader,

In the Orthodox Church the date of Easter is worked out differently from the Western Church. I have learned over the last 26 years to simply accept this - while weeping for the divisions. Lord have mercy.

However I am saying that in order to set an understanding of the nuggets this week, and next week. I was being ‘blessed’ with trials of life in 2020, triggering old trauma wounds, that led to an awareness of some of the despising and rejection that Christ suffered. He was being put to death for the false gods of others.

The nuggets speak to me of deep things and understanding - but also of the courage and grace that trust in the Holy Spirit and Love of God brings.

At His Divine level we can see this as blessing. But at a human level I still needed to be willing to surrender all human self-interest, and surrender all for a greater good - as Christ did on the Cross.

Come and join with me in greater understanding of both the suffering of mysogeny , and the purification and grace we are offered when seeing ourselves in Christ.

Tuesday 7th April, 2020

My darling bride, be patient with those who have crushed you, denied My Love and Grace in you. They know not what they do. They live by their philosophy and know not broken-ness and your closeness to Me. Keep your silence - deep in Me and praise me for My forbearance and good-will. I will provide for your work today - start with the gilding - Gentleness and Love. Amen.

Wednesday 8th April, 2020

Beloved child, I know you are in pain* but do not be afraid. It will go with work. Surrender all your work into My hands and Heart and I will lead you in gentle-ness and mercy. Only aim to get the image (lines only) on the gilded icon. Keep planning the garden areas and preparing the soil with compost - and get the path down - with praise and thanksgiving, and Joy for new life in your heart. Humility My child.

* my back - particularly round my neck area.

Thursday 9th April, 2020

Your heart longs for security and wisdom - do not be afraid of loss or shame. You will be upheld in righteousness. Your mind was trained to continually search for safety and something to trust.

Shame and loss of love, were the food of your being. You had no courage or strength to hold on to the beautiful, good or true - only what you were asked to do.** Ask for discernment and grace.

**Christ is referring to one of the effects of a trauma wound locked within the body. My only ‘safety was doing what I was told to do.

This fear is not a conscious wound that can be ‘cut out’ but needs a ‘Loving context’, self-acceptance and awareness of God’s Love seeking to enfold you in all things that seek to bless and build or re-build you. Beautiful art and music, and movement are all restoring to the soul, as of course is prayer, praise and gratitude.

Friday 10th April, 2020

In a wilderness My daughter, death seems inevitable unless help arrives. Your soul is blinded by lovelessness and abuse from human fathers. Pray for Me to overcome this blindness and despair - and that you may have eyes to see and an open heart to receive.

You KNOW I love you - but your heart needs healing in order to receive this Love.. Do NOT be afraid - I Am with you. Rest in Me and My Grace.

‘Let go and let God.’ - Be gentle and confident in My Love.

Saturday 11th April, 2020.

Child I am not pretending that this is humanly easy for you. The Cross and the despising and rejecting cost me in My humanity - but I still trusted the Father and God’s purposes through Me.. And you too My beloved spouse - be faithful to Me and God’s Purposes - pray, praise, and intercede. Do what is planned and do not be afraid. You are kept safe.

Dear Reader,

This may seem very dark, but when darkness is brought to the Light - flowers may grow and we are strengthened within. I pray that you or those you love who have suffered trauma inducing abuse, may be blessed today with a willingness to let the Love of God deeper within, and that His purposes will prevail.

Dear Reader,

Its so easy to get into our own heads, create our own world, and forget we are Spirit and flesh - and in both ‘worlds’ are affected by a wider environment. Christ became man to show us the way of overcoming the trials of life, and all fear of death.

He always had total trust in God the Father…trusting that the Father had a purpose for His life, loved Him, and that He knew the right timing for things. He stayed PRESENT to what was happening around Him, to Him and through Him, always listening to and for the Spirit of Truth.

Everyday has mini-deaths if we are living for True Life and Love as we navigate being in this multifaceted life and death— and trusting in Resurrection in His timing and Way.

Growing in Christ

Part of our journeying in life, is recognising and riding the waves of these two elemental realities - the flesh/material , and the spirit - in particular the Holy Spirit that always leads to Life and Unity usually via some form of ‘dying’.

Todays nuggets address some of the difficulties we have in allowing God to ‘extend our boundaries’ as we go through life. These have often been shut down by suffering so it means trusting Him a) with something new and challenging, and b) needing to literally pay for it when a sense of poverty and ‘I’m not allowed’ lived in my heart and soul making frugality a go-to position.

These issues appear regularly particularly for those who suffered abuse as children, because we took on mis-guided self-protection in order to seek to protect ourselves from harm. We need both more Trust in God the Father/Provider, who didn’t appear to provide adequately when the cause for trauma happened, and more understanding of the deep root of ‘loveless-ness’, with the subconscious effects of this violation of trust.

Friday’s nugget gives us direct help for attitudes stemming from the past, yet alive in the present in our subconscious deep within us. By owning them, we are given the means of overcoming the debilitating affects of these unloving, disbelieving attitudes. God’s Love and mercy is without end.

I hope you find these nuggets uplifting and encouraging, even if you too are being spiritually challenged more deeply in this time of Lent, and world unrest. Christ’s rootedness in God’s Love, gives us certainty in Eternal Life.

Monday 30th March, 2020

Be still child - I want you to extend your boundaries and pay the monthly fee for the on-line Singing lessons. I will provide. Do not be ashamed. You sing for Me… through Me, and with Me. To God be the glory.

(Lord I believe, help Thou my unbelief.)

Wednesday 1st April, 2020

Glory to God in the Highest - Receive My Love - the height, depth, and length and breadth - you are precious in God’s sight.

Be loved - be Love - Bear My Name is every breath, thought and act. Glory to God. Your willingness IS your grace - your will like rising sap (in a spring tree) producing growth and good fruit. Amen child.

Amen Lord.

Friday 3rd April, 2020

Darling child - Out of the depths - you call to Me - through My grace to descend into hell. You will be delivered from all intransigence. Do not be afraid.

Self-pity is overcome by praise;

Vainglory is overcome by humility and gratitude.

Be patient, praise and give thanks. You are precious to Me.

(Lord I believe, help Thou my unbelief.)

Saturday 4th April

In the afternoon -I was pointed to the writing of March 17th - which is principally about ‘letting go’ in order to let God work through me….. but the last sentence was what I needed to hear. I was reminded that the Cross and ‘blessing my enemies’ is the grace that I am given and I must persevere - in order to save souls and be a Light in God’s Kingdom.

Oh Beloved Lord - make me whole-hearted for You, not seeking for myself - always willing for obedience to grace. I am willing to be willing.

Dear Reader,

You may find yourself arguing and not wanting to accept this ‘facing pain’ - in fact you may already have ‘turned it off’ - or dismissed it as rubbish. or gone to watch something on television or a film that takes your mind away from any sense of vulnerability or shame at powerlessness, and the heaviness of facing responsibility for the enormity of this burden! I’ve done it all - I have drawers full of metaphorical T-shirts!

I understand, but by God’s grace, and the circumstances God put me in - I was finally willing to accept that I could not heal myself, nor deny thepain any longer, and asked for grace to persevere…. The end result is/was a book.

This is not purely for my sake, but so I could communicate to others that God is real, loves all of us, and made us for love and community in serving each other,and using the gifts He has given us for a greater good. No-one needs to be permanently stuck with the present hell of subconscious early trauma events whose effects seem unsurmountable and with no hope.

Yet He gave us free-will so we do need to say YES, to God’s work for us. Neither we, nor He alone can set us free to Live and Love on our own. This is what is so beautiful. I am His, and He is mine. And so for you if you choose to follow the Way.

‘From Weeping to Joy in Trust: A guided Journal for the Way, the Truth and the Life remade in Love.’

https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/B0GPQY4F4J

May your week be blessed.

Dear Reader,

When I opened the 2020 diary to this week, I saw that 4 of the days were summaries of what God had accomplished either through the grace and vision I was given, or through another. Thus the long-awaited shed was moved to completion because the door and roof were added, and roofing felt, and floor made the shed usable. I lined the walls and put two shelves up. And that day started work on an icon that had been commissioned.

I guess these were examples of ‘God wills and does’, and ‘God provides’ often through other people. But I was also receiving His word to help me persevere despite my ‘feelings’ and old wounds coming to the surface.

Wednesday 25th of March, 2026

Child - you are not alone or abandoned by God. You accept your nothingness and the degradation of your childhood. Do not be afraid. ‘Though you pass through the fire you will not be burned.*

*I have written about this quote from Isaiah 43:2b before… the ‘fire’ refers to anger and strong feelings that stem from evil treatment by others particularly those from whom you would expect love - and are triggered by current trials. And 43:3 explains our hope, ’For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, who saves you.’ The wonderful thing about this saving work of God, is that in owning these strong and ‘dangerous’ feelings, which originally created fear of abandonment, and a sense of disintegration in the child - in God’s Hands and Love it creates a re-integration of this part of yourself, re-connecting this happening with both the Love and wisdom of God, and the ability to understand and ‘carry’ the happening in your ‘rational mind’ - the pre-frontal cortex. Through God’s Spirit one is able to see that ‘x’ person truly did not know/understand what they were doing. Step by step forgiveness becomes easier- according to how much of God’s Love has been let in!! And being willing to release the anger, bitterness etc to the Cross of Christ, frees the Spirit in order to create new Life and Love.

Thursday 26th March, 2020

Beloved daughter - armed with Love, Prayer and unutterable Faith, you with/in Me are a warrior in the time of strife. You will overcome your/our deaths and be a Light in the darkness. Trust Me that I will provide.

Darling child - rest in Me and be at Peace - in hope and Praise. Amen

Saturday 28th March, 2020

Let go child. I always wanted you - Created and re-formed to My praise and glory. Let go the self-interest which stems from your rejection in utero and at birth - and know that I am God and in Me you live and move and have your/My being.

Dear Reader, These nuggets are a gentle encouragement to accept that God formed us in His Image — that we may be conformed to His Likeness, as we become strengthened in His Spirit, becoming the bearer of His Love. ‘and draw precious souls to Him’.

Good Strength as you go on your Journey. May you have ears to hear, eyes to see a Heart to receive His Love. Good Courage - to allow ‘all that is in the dark into the Light’ and know more and more of Freedom to live in Grace.

Dear Reader,

While surrender to God promises us Joy and Hope and Love, God also needs us to grow beyond childishness which tends towards wanting the good things, but not the uffering for God’s Sake! And that needs us to re-face deaths He’s dealt with in the past! Will we choose life by turning to Him?

Come with me today as I am enabled through His ‘tough love’ guidance.

Sunday 8th March, 2020

Child - you want to LIVE before you have fully died. Do not be surprised by your sadness and sense of loss - nor by your inability to fill the gap! Only by My grace and purity of heart will this happen.

All that is in the dark must come to the Light. Come Holy Spirit.

Yes child, watch the video -the Midwife one* - but listen to your heart first.

**’Call the Midwife’ a television series set in the East-End of London - set round a house of nuns committed to midwifery in the community. They also house secular midwives who work with them, and collaborate with the secular facility of a GP run facility for women to have their babies. The series started with the time scale in the 1950s but after 15 years of series, they are now dealing with the issues emerging in the 60s, including National Health cost-cutting closures and mergers and secular pressure to close any form of religious input…totally opposing the lived experience of the local people who valued their care.

Monday 9th March, 2020

(Late afternoon)

‘Blessed are the meek for they will inherit the earth’…Child I will provide for All your needs - only believe - and praise - and receive. Yes child these are dark times - but let your mind and heart be lifted by holy hope to stand and yet stand.

Tuesday 10th, March, 2020

Believing that I am with you is a gift to My Holy Heart. Do not be afraid of this intransigence - give thanks for your breakfast and do not be dismayed. All manner of things will be well.

Pray, intercede for your oppressors. Father, forgive them their intransigence and self-centredness. Deliver them from evil. To You alone be glory.

Wednesday 11th March, 2020

A new day my darling daughter. - My bride, My hands and feet, heart and voice. Wrap yourself in My love, hope, perseverance and joy. (!) Faith My dear one. Finish your sewing before you eat, then persevere with the icon. All will be well. Rejoice and be glad - the Lord is with you. Deep Peace child.

Friday 13th March, 2020

Dear one, I AM with you - All that is in the dark will come to the Light. Holy Cross - Sacrificial Lamb…

(Lord I will praise You - God of gods who sustained me throughout my life- Have mercy on me.)

Child, get up and keep praying for your family who abandoned you - and for your well-being now - that you may love and serve My Purposes.

Dear Readers, I hope you are receiving, maybe for the 100th time, as I am, that call to a purer walk, letting go old human needs, which block your higher calling, and false desire for control of the process. In God alone I put my trust. MAy you hear and follow……

Dear Reader,

I feel so grateful to be able to share these Nuggets, and that I was given them when I so needed them six years ago. It seems a life-time!

Yet these Spiritual blessings remain fresh, and meaningful to life now, as I balance all facets of being alive, living without other human-beings in my household, and daily longing to serve, love and do God’s will.

I hope you too are refreshed, enabled and are opened to the Grace of God’s Love expanding your Heart, and refreshing your mind and will.

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Dear Reader,

I wonder if you share this problem with me? Past problems or failures, or simply lifeless feeling, prevent me from facing the life-giving work I need to do?

But now, I never fail to be blessed by the constant relevance of the Truths filling these nuggets and speaking to me in my situation now! No - I’m not physically making a pond, and no longer really have a garden, but I am seeking to complete a task that is for the Kingdom. I need to keep praising and giving thanks which protects me from the ‘sniper’ who seeks to undermine my grace and the work I need to do.

And this is a message for all of us. God, as creator of our Being, knows that while we stay in the sympathetic nervous system (fight and flight) we cannot Love, Trust, or be ‘moved’ by His Grace and Love. We have to choose to ‘feed the hope of writing’ or whatever we are invited to do, with praise and thanksgiving - thus restoring our Peace and connection with Him in the Heart through the para-sympathetic nervous system.

I hope you too are blessed by these nuggets and re-find those ‘courage and love givers,’ praise and thanksgiving.

Saturday 22nd February, 2020

P.S. I am in awe my God of Your provision - and revelation of that bitterness root - and opportunity to confess and have communion….and the grace to serve at baptisms all day - then Vespers - then Q etc. Lord to You alone be glory - take not Your Holy Spirit from me.

Sunday 23rd February, 2020

Beloved daughter - ‘all that is in the dark will come to the Light’ - Overcoming by Love, forgiveness, repentance and trust in My love for You and the Father’s Provision. - now and for the future. Do not be afraid of memories but give glory to God for ‘setting the prisoners free’.

Amen Lord. - I open my heart door to You.

Tuesday 25th February, 2020

All you are reading* are leading you more fully into My life and truth within and through you. You become more subsumed as boundaries fall and become permeable and willing to be held in My Embrace and Purposes - letting go of ego and self-interest.’Let go and let God’!! Darling heart - be open and embraced in Divine Grace - Consumed in Love. (Amen)

* Both Daily Readings from the Bible, and meditations from the Centre for Action and Contemplation, Richard Rohr.

Wednesday 26th February, 2020

Child I know this is hard** - so was the cross. And I fell and got up again - despised and rejected by man - the women unable (helpless) to help. You have courage and ‘strength’ in Me to persevere with the pond***. Get everything ready and don’t be afraid. Feed the hope of writing with PRAISE and THANKSGIVING for all you have been carried through - and keep leaning on Me.

** I was needing to dig out the earth to be able to sink an old bath (part of the rubbish dump in that part of the garden) to make a pond to provide for birds, toads, and the bees….but also was living with awareness that the promised shed would not be completed and made usable in the forseeable future.

*** What I did was a miracle of grace - I was given calmness, strength and perseverance to keep on digging out the soil to get the right slope on the bath - one end was shallow while the tap end was deep in the earth. By sunset the pond was lined - and filled with water - and only lighter tasks left to do. Glory to God!!

Thursday 27th of February, 2020

Child of God - rest in Me - Listen, praise and give thanks. You will be led more and more by grace ‘beyond understanding’ - divine worship in Spirit and Truth. Immortal daughter pray for Justice and Open-doors for My Voice through you. All will be well. All manner of things will be well. I love you My precious one.

I trust You my Lord - help overcome my lack of Trust.

Dear Readers,

I encourage you, and myself, to keep choosing to praise and give thanks when our minds get tempted to try and take charge, or even worse, focus on all the difficult or ‘impossible’ situations preventing any action at all.

These are all trauma responses indicating that there are still trauma wounds hidden in the subconscious. In Christ this is no problem - IF we open our hearts, face our pains and losses, and ask Jesus’ Love on the Cross into our wound. The Holy Spirit WILL bring healing if we repent of trying to hide the wound in shame - and instead own it. In Humility and Gentleness all is possible - for the Kingdom of Love.

Blessed healing this Lent - that more that is in the dark may come to the Light of Love.

Dear Reader,

While these nuggets appear so simple calling us to live for the Kingdom of God, they actually challenge the complexity we impose through trying to ‘work things out’ through our thinking and worldly experience! Plus all the meaning we have made about things that happened to us. It seems so simple to simply accept and believe that we ARE Loved by God and all we need do is surrender our wilfulness and self-interest!!

But even this morning I found myself making a half mini pitta - and eating it without thanking God or praying- and an old trauma response related to my throat kicked in!! In humility - I brought this on myself - but with prayer I got through this trial…without bitterness or blaming anyone! If we have suffered trauma there are many side-effects that we need to keep surrendering and praying about.

I long for this simplicity, and humility - and the total trust the Holy Spirit of Christ is calling me, us, to! Lord have mercy on us.

Sunday 16th February, 2020

Child, I want you to stay in patient perseverance, one day, moment at a time - in My Love for the world - and you- but trusting Me to uphold you - in My Will in the Father - open, loving, giving and serving with whole-hearted love/commitment to those you serve. Do not be afraid of the recalcitrant - pray and bless and forgive - ‘there but by My grace go you.’ Father forgive them, they know not what they do. Amen

Monday 17th February, 2020

Resistance to change comes from old wounds - don’t be afraid of change of plans - surrender all to the Love of God. Surrender all desires for the garden into My hands and receive My blessings love and provision. Let go My dear child and be blessed by My Strength, grace and truth. Bless and forgive your worst enemies in ALL humility. Amen.

Wednesday 19th February, 2020

Overcoming child, includes bringing total harmony of body, soul and spirit - emotions, mind and will - all to the glory of God the Father.

All barriers surrendered to the Cross. Love and the Holy Spirit uniting all to the Sepulchre and surrendering all to the grace and pace (timing) of the Father. Your will be done. Amen

Lord give us confidence to find our integrity and wholeness in the sepulchre with you - blaming no-one, forgiving all, and totally trusting in Your Father’s Love for resurrection to Eternal Life.

Dear Reader,

I don’t know about you - but I have a tendency to ‘let sleeping dogs lie’. But in the end we have to face the disturbance of those sleeping dogs and see what lies as hidden suffering, behind them.

So it was with me. And God gave me strength, and encouragement to make a bold move….leading to the exposure of a living metaphor - which led to greater honesty with God - and ultimately new life..

Sunday 9th February, 2020

Darling child - in this pit is salvation. Trust Me to overcome. Keep praising and forbearing - serving and blessing in My Name - as I told you so long ago - trusting Me to bring you healing and deliverance. All glory to God - Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Amen

( Amen Lord.)

Tuesday 11th February, 2020

Gentleness My child, My daughter, My purity of Heart, My holiness in Spirit and Truth. You are clinging to the Cross for My Sake - for My Purposes. Do not be afraid.

Trust Me child, not your past, but My Future - ‘on earth as it is in Heaven’. Have patience and faith for the garden.*

*I was living in an empty shell of the old vicarage, which was in the process of being made into individual apartments, apart from where I was living which would become a larger flat for a family. I had lost the ‘garden’ I used to tend because of all the new boundaries and drainage pipes turmoil, and I realised - as Spring approached, I needed an area of garden.

Because of the Lord’s encouragement, I went and asked as ‘a child of God’ if I could have some garden. I was given an area used for garden rubbish of the original garden. It would become an area of garden for flat 8- when it was on the list for renovation.

The work I was led to do, sometimes aided by the workmen who I had been supporting and providing for over the previous 6 months of demolition and re-construction, meant that ‘in truth’ my body engaged in constructive activity. The uprooting of ‘bind-weed’ became a metaphor for the uprooting of lies, and demonic forces holding me in darkness and powerlessness.

Wednesday 12th February, 2020

Child, you are not trusting Me to live in, through, for you. You in Me - Me in you. Keep praising and trusting and stand against the lies of Satan and self-hating which led you to want to be in control. Open your heart door and put all your work needs, inside and out, in My hands and Heart, and Trust Me.

Forgive me. I trust You, help my lack of trust.

*By the end of the 12th I had cleared over grown trees - cutting back and cutting up what had to go on a fire. The work men helped me get a fire going for all the rubbish that was ready

Thursday 13th February, 2020

‘PS Pulling and digging up bindweed remains.

pm Visited E in hospital to support her re the birth of her baby….which was to be induced.’

And so my life continued, clearing the garden- ground of bind weed in order to be able to plant good seed, or transplant fruit or vegetable plants to make the area productive. And alongside the joy of creating a productive garden, the Lord led me to support women in the parish who had no parent near-by.

With both surprise and joy in my heart, I found myself that afternoon visiting the mother afore-mentioned and was able to stay with her for some hours while she was being induced, till she was being left to rest. The following evening two babies and 2 mums plus two families!

Another mother of the parish was booked in for a Caesarian, but her husband needed to be elsewhere at the appointed time. The first I knew of my role was when I had arrived at hospital, at the time she told me, and was being given ‘scrubs’ to wear!

So that day I was at least present and involved in a C-Section birth and became the one to hold the new baby while Mum was being sewn up. What an honour!

And that evening I shared the wonder and joy of two families, in the same hospital but two different areas….By God’s grace I did find both of them and marvelled at the gift I was given to share in the birthed babies and celebrating families. God is Good.

Dear Reader,

We have followed the 2018 nuggets for 52 weeks. In moving flat I have misplaced 2019 diary, so today we start our 2nd year of Nuggets with 2020. The Words are timeless and always alive with meaning and significance. So I hope, you too are blessed with these from this week in 2020.

We can see how the Lord brought, and brings, healing to specific trauma wounds during a time when I was ‘serving’ others.

Friday January 31st, 2020

Hopelessness my beloved child is NOT of faith or initiated by God. In Me you always trust, hope and love - even in dark places - Yes child, I trusted even on the Cross (despite ‘being’ abandoned). Stop striving and trying to ‘see’ the Way or answer.* Trust, Rest - and receive the Way, the Truth and the Life - in PEACE and LOVE -with long-suffering, and Grace to persevere. (Amen, Lord.)

Gentleness upholds in all things - holding all people and the material world in harmony.

*Saturday 1st of February I was helping with Baptisms, and close friends provided ‘treats’ for my birthday - but it was the ‘carrying by Christ’ in all this that I commented on in the PS to the Friday entry.

And Sunday 2nd I wrote another PS,

P.S.’Re-birth- Yes Lord I kept turning and resting in You - and You came into the lies about my birth -and You healed/overturned the ‘death’ within - and You gave new life and hope to my body- ‘Vivified’. Glory to You my God - and You /I drove to Nottingham- and I felt no stress.

Monday 3rd February, 2020

Child - your surrender to Grace is a garland of beauty in the Heavenlies; Your obedience, in Love to My Life and work, is My delight and joy. Trust Me today- stay IN My Name, Heart and LOVE and make a path of Hope for those who desire to speak to you.*

*I had come to Nottingham, to a prayer community of women who either had mental-health issues of their own, or had children who suffered from mental health difficulties. They prayed for each other and the whole mental-health system and those involved; and joined in practical and creative work each week to provide crafts for sale, and cards to send to those in mental health wards who had no family support. They also sang regularly at a local Care Home for the elderly, using the piano and singing gifts of specific members of the Group.

Each time I went to spend three or four days with them, individuals that I had come to know wanted one to one time with me to talk.

Tuesday 4th February, 2020

Hope My daughter in My overcoming of your disgrace and degradation of soul. ** You lived through hell You lived through hell with the self-will of your step-father which degraded and denied your goodwill and love. I Am yours. Do not be afraid. Your willingness to live for me IS divine grace and truth. Let us become divine love in action. Amen (Amen Lord.)

**During the night I had woken feeling that I was mentally dead - yet ‘aware’ of this and able to ‘search’ for thoughts - which I found in my heart - and prayed the Jesus Prayer - then I wrote a poem about the state I was in - trusting in God to bring me through: ‘Though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil.’ After about 2 hours I was able to sleep again.

Wednesday 5th of February, 2020

Later in the day: - Overcoming all death, destruction of the soul, and the lies o f satan- by the Lived Love of God; the gentleness of purity of heart and the Truth of God in humility and forgiveness. This is the Narrow Way of Love - bringing purity of heart and the Holy Spirit - becoming the bearer of God the Word. Glory to God alone.

Thursday 6th February, 2020

(Back from Nottingham last night.)

PS. Poverty of spirit leads you the way of the Cross - self-sacrifice, degradation, and forgiveness. Be comforted by My love for you, and the Father’s provision of help.

Oh Lord have mercy. I felt powerless and yet You enabled me.

Dear Reader I hope this encourages you to cast aside any fear you have about childhood abuse memories emerging or being with you for ever. Not that they are ‘pleasant’ but that WITH CHRIST they will be overcome and the root healed. And they come, and are overcome, because you are willing to be a servant of God.

I don’t need to tell you that our life is a journey! But can I remind you of some of the elements of a journey?

We get weary - and forget who we are and why we are there - if we ever knew..

• we may not have the right food to sustain us -

• our travelling companions may disappear or change direction.

• And we lose sight of the goal - if we ever had one.

All these things, and many more, divert us from the leg of the journey we are on, and the Goodwill we had when we started … leaving us aware of the fact we are apparently lost in a desert.

Its very easy to lose contact with the inner Guide and to fail to hear, feel or see the signs we are being given - that we’ve missed a turning or new resources were refused.

What Jesus and the Holy Spirit are reminding me in these nuggets - is simply that He (Father, Son and Holy Spirit) are always with me to encourage, lead and provide in His Spirit for every decision and action in Wisdom. And we know sometimes He Carries us - maybe He’s carrying us in this desert - waiting for us to stop struggling and LISTEN?

I pray these Nuggets may bless you to remain aLive and Present to His Love as you Journey - wherever you are at present. (May your head give way to your Heart in order not simply to ‘read’ these but to ‘contemplate’ them with an open heart.)

Friday 26th January, 2018

Love overcomes all loss and worldly dereliction. It gives Strength and Truth to the broken-hearted.

Saturday 27th January, 2018

Wisdom always trusts in God and calls on the Name (Jesus Christ) for Wisdom’s Action.

Sunday 28th January, 2018

Divine Love is a Living Promise which always overcomes.

Monday 29th January, 2018

Wrap all work ‘to dos’ in the Beauty of My Grace, Love and redeeming purposes and do not be anxious.

I am the Overcoming One, not you alone.

To God alone be all glory, honour and power.

Tuesday 30th January, 2018

Peace, darling child, Peace ……peace that surpasses all understanding, knowledge and wisdom. Peace, the Incarnate Presence who is, and ever will be. Amen.

Good Strength dear Reader - and Good Courage for renewed Faith, Hope and Love for your journey.

Dear Reader,

When life gets very complicated, and we are tempted in every direction to get embroiled in its tendrils, lets recoil from the tendrils of darkness, and learn, or relearn, these basic lessons. Essentially I was being led to recall that ‘in God alone I should put my trust.’ And in the power of His Prayer from the Cross we can rebuild our own lives, ‘Father forgive them, they know not what they do’, because it comes through Divine Love and purity of heart.

Walk with me on this path being re-minded of the simplcity and humility amid the confusion of man-made pride.

Saturday 20th January, 2018

Patience looks to God to provide for all needs and makes no expectations of the other.

Sunday 21st January, 2018

Love does not remove darkness - it transforms it into purity of Heart and grace in action.

Eg.* ‘Darkness’ can be interpreted, as ‘all in the dark’ or where there is no understanding, and nothing grows because there is no Light (understanding) or Love or purpose. What the Lord is telling us is that this state is neither permanent, not necessary once we are given awareness of it because we can pray for Light, understanding, Love and Truth…..IF we open it up to God, and surrender any self-protecting lies keeping the events hidden.

This means we respond in Love when the pain hidden is acknowledged and brought to God in prayer - including surrender of all shame and blaming. We will be given Light (understanding, Hope, deliverance, Grace) in what was the Darkness. - Thus I learned I was not to blame for my abuse - nor guilty for not being heard….. But in gradually receiving God’s Love in my wounds, and forgiving as far as I could each time; Love and Grace emerged in tender compassion for my situation - but also for all who suffered.

Monday 22nd January, 2018

True Love always brings courage, grace and Truth to live by the Light. It is not self-serving or self-denying - in humility, love is Blessed.

Wednesday 24th January, 2018

In the darkest place, praise and thanksgiving to God, lifts the soul to Grace and Truth, love and piety. Amen

Thursday 25th January, 2018

Blessing comes through blessing, loving and poverty of spirit - seeing with divine eyes and giving with a pure heart.

May we all be willing to open our hearts when we are aware of darkness and allow the Light of Christ, who redeems the lost, to break down any walls of fear, bitterness or even hatred, especially of our-selves. May His Love and Spirit bring a willingness, to forgive ourselves, and others and receive the healing that softens and opens our Heart to renewed Life, Hope and Purpose.

May your week be blessed.

Marina

Dear Reader,

When I started to be aware of ‘feelings’ rather than living in denial of both my needs and the feelings I had, ‘love’ was far from something I understood. I neither thought about it nor ‘felt’ it in any conscious way. I guess I was ‘dispassionate’. But what is the difference between ‘dispassion’ and ‘indifference’?

My history of abuse, and lack of care, had led me to denial of the damage inflicted on my soul and body, but the mercy of God had given me grace to persevere in life as a teacher. Through this grace I gradually overcome the potential hardness of heart towards my pupils/students. When I was brought back to an active faith many years later, I had to face the lack of love I had towards myself and my own needs.

These nuggets came about twenty years after the beginning of ‘practical experience’ and conscious awareness of Christ’s Love when I gave my life to Him within a church.

Monday 12th January, 2018

Love is forgiveness - bringing the soul out of darkness of self, into the Light of ‘Otherness’ in Christ -making all One. Love my darling child embraces all, overcoming all judgement and rational thought.

Tuesday 13th January, 2018

Justice my darling child is not found in law, but in love. Love embraces law and transforms it into purity of heart and life. Love IS and therefore gives Life - Life Eternal. Justice embraces the Cross and forgives - and blesses the perpetrator and dies.

Thursday 15th January, 2018

We, darling child, will overcome all desire to move and run-away from evil and law breaking. In Me we rise above the material, bless our enemy and pray for those who use us spitefully. Trust the Father, and Trust Me in the Holy Spirit.

Friday 16th January, 2018

Love overcomes death, defeat, intransigence - and the lies of satan. Ask and you will receive, knock and the door will be opened to you, seek and you will find. Nothing is impossible for God. Open your loveless human heart to Me and believe.

Lord I believe, help Thou my unbelief.

Trusting that we can ‘ask, knock and seek’ brings Hope and God’s Love into all those heart-breaking events and traumas that threaten to deny all Truth and New Life.

Give us Strength Lord in Your Love.

Dear Reader,

*You will see that I am still using the 2018 gifts of Nuggets because I have not yet found the 2019, 2020 and 2021 diaries! But I have found another potential storage place hiding in my new habitation!! For this week at least I am happy to be able to share these 2018 simple, Holy Truths to encourage us on the current leg of our journey of Faith and Hope.

Come with me to be encouraged in a discipline of Love,

*Thursday 4th December, 2018

Give me a Right understanding Lord.

‘Child - Look to the Cross, forgive and repent, and you will be given all you need.

A bruised reed I will not break.’

Friday, 5th January 2018

Divine Instruction for each day:

Purity ** and Trust are the Keys to divine Truth and Love. Always lifting the other beyond the darkness through your/My Silence and Love.

**Although ‘purity’ tends to get associated with moral actions, it is more concerned with our state of Heart and mind. Thus Jesus is encouraging us to ‘not judge’ one another, because we do not know the needs or life of the other - yet in His Silence, in Love, through us - to bring Divine Grace - through our Trust in His Love embracing the other. The Presence of His Love and Purity of Heart touches and changes others.

Thursday 11th January, 2018

Peace is a gift for the soul. It emanates from Divine Trust in ‘what is’ and cannot be given to those who will not acknowledge God.

A Blessed New Year, aiming with each day and meeting with others, to build His Kingdom in Love.