Nugget 2.21. (4)
Held in Love, Growing in Hope : Securely in His heart and called to become His Light for others.
Dear Reader,
By now you will be aware that these nuggets, offering God’s Love and Truth, are for the broken-hearted and those who suffered child-hood abuse. Maybe, like me, you had turned off feeling and become ‘dissociated’ from the pain of lovelessness and lack of secure relationships. Yet to learn to live fully, in touch with all the goodness of Life, we need to learn to STAY PRESENT to life and own the feelings when you suffer, so they can be healed and changed.
Over the last few weeks the Nuggets have reflected the outcome of facing more old pain triggered by current trials in 2020. I was given grace to face the inner pain and darkness with Faith and God’s Spirit, but without overtly seeing or feeling the ‘Blessing’ of doing so. The nuggets from this week reflect the ‘gift’ involved in choosing for God’s Ways to deal with the pain of both active, and buried ‘trauma wounds’. We see how God provides, in His Spirit and Love, for a ‘redeemed life’ in His Divinity. But this is only possible as we surrender both our childish demands, and choose for God’s Kingdom.
I am constantly in awe of God’s faithfulness to His Promises to provide for our needs on our journey of healing and redemption But He cannot respond to our childish self-centred demands! He works always in the framework of His bigger aims….especially - His desire that we go His Way and choose for Him freely. In other words, He never forces anyone do His Loving Will, even when the innocent get hurt along the way. This may have happened to you too at the hands of parents or care-givers who were damaged in their soul - with no Right-minded Self-control. Subsequently you were abused and/or consistently neglected - and still carry the trauma wounds, with the confusion they bring.
He wants us to think and act like Him. Some years ago I had been with my son and his family, and my eldest grandson, about 3 years old, had behaved very wilfully and aggressively and I had told him off.
When I left I was convicted of the severity with which I had told him off, and the Spirit asked me to ring him and apologise. I rang and though my daughter in law told me he didn’t speak on the phone, she was willing to give him the phone so we could try a conversation.
I told him why I needed to speak to him and wanted to ask for forgiveness for being too strict. I assured him of my love for him, and my desire he love and forgive others too. He forgave me…’Its alright Nana’. And peace was restored in my heart.
I offer these Nuggets to you with an invitation to persevere in Love in all things - and embrace the promises of God. Lets seek to be part of the blessings - because we trust in God’s Word and Promises. Be encouraged that ‘ALL manner of things will be well.’ Remember that above all, your traumatised self needs to be open to believe that she/he IS loved, and is held in security by God, and is blessed through Him, to bless others - being part of the Healing in the world, not passing on the damage. But ONLY freely given - after receiving and KNOWING God’s Love.
Monday 29th June, 2020
Be gentle, be holy child, be pure - . Praise and Thanksgiving in all things. Do not despair despite these depths. Pray for this church and for the WHOLE Church. For the hierarchs who are too busy or self-satisfied to see My Face and Heart.
(Lord have mercy on us all.)
Be patient child - Love your Holy Mother -‘Most Holy Theotokos, Pray for us.’
Tuesday 30th June, 2020
Aloneness, being solitary - is not being lonely: it allows a great freedom to love God and all humanity. It gives more space for God’s Love and Purposes to Love and Embrace you in harmony with others.
It is a question of opening heart and mind to the Word, and to the Holy Spirit- the Spirit which is ‘filling all things’. Child of God - you are Loved in and through Me. Amen
Wednesday 1st July, 2020
‘Consider the Beautiful, Good and True.’
Darling child. - open your mind to this - extending the inner being to embrace more of the fullness of My Love for you and for the world.
Do not worry about the future child. You are in My hands and Heart.
Sunday 5th July, 2020
Darling child - I know the sadness and pain deep within you - I know the deepest desires and need for stillness and rest. I know your desire for Me and My Presence - do not be afraid.
Be Still - the Father cherishes each tear of longing for Grace and Truth - and you will be blessed.
Go in My Name My child. Be My Love - carry My Truth Be Whole for Me. Darling child of darkness - Be My Light and Hope.
Dear Reader,
What can I say? If you want to be set free from shame or self hatred, distrust and poor relationships - we need to follow the Way that Christ offers us. The way of the Cross, in forgiveness and trust, becomes life giving, and we grow in closer obedience to the Way we are being led through receiving more of God’s Love in our Heart.
Learning to trust God’s faithful love, even through life’s deepest wounds, we discover healing, forgiveness, and the quiet assurance that we are held securely in His heart and called to become His light for others. We become, more and more, His Love for the world, and we are led by His Spirit to serve in multiple ways - but one day at a time.
With Trust nothing can separate us from the Love of God.
Good Strength as you receive and carry His Love.